I am such a planner. If you are like me, even your plans are made up of plans. I had it set in my mind that I would go to university, get a good job, find a man I love, travel the world, get married, and have cute-ass babies. I still dream of what I want my ideal life to look like, but now I dream with my heart open to the possibility of change.
When I first found out I had cancer I honestly couldn’t believe it. I was in denial, not just about having the disease, but with everything I felt I had lost because of it. I lost the internship I worked so hard for. I lost the opportunity to study abroad with my friends. I was so ready to go into my last year of university, graduate with everyone, and start the next phase of my life. The thing is, I thought that next phase would be my career or travelling. But instead, I was fighting for my life. That meant letting go of my normalcy and learning to accept a new normal.
In September, I saw everyone going back to school, starting new internships, or doing their study abroad terms. Everyone was in the place I had felt I was supposed to be. I felt like my life was stripped from me. It was a grieving process. I felt grief over the girl I once looked like and how simple my life had felt. When you feel like everything has been taken from you, it is so easy to lose sight of yourself. I remember looking in the mirror after I had lost my hair. I didn’t even feel sick, but seeing that image of myself made it so much more real.
You learn a lot when you are faced with a near-death experience. You learn to take life a lot less seriously and to just have fun with the process. We often don’t recognize the importance of playfulness in our lives.
You learn not to be afraid to fall, because getting back up is where the greatest lessons are learnt. And even though you may not always have control over what is happening in your life, you do have control over how you choose to respond. We have the choice not to suffer and fall victim to our perceptions. I know that’s a lot easier said than done, but if we accept the uncertainty and learn to love and appreciate the ups and downs, this is where we will reach our greatest sense of fulfillment.
Kirsten
Your an inspiration to the world ,
Falling victims to our perceptions and how life should be
is powerful quote.
Thanks for having such a strong will you’ve shown me a lot of strength in your character ,like your parents
your a leader already.
Thanks for sharing your story
it is about adversity in the time of your greatest vulnerability , life.
Pray for you Kyra
Thanks for sharing your strength
You’ve made me a better person and I’ll try be a bit more light hearted today ❤️❤️
Kyra Williams
Thank you so much Kirsten! Your kind words mean so much and I have so much admiration for your sweet soul. Reach out any time if you need anything at all xo
Ronald and Terrie Reinhart !
Kyra;
thank you for sharing your intimate thoughts on your life journey, Our lives due unfold as we are planing them but not usually as we expect things to be ! Throw in a near death experience and wow where has this Train track taken me ?
You are an inspiration to so many you don’t even know ! Shannon inspired so many in his short life So many people have come forward years after to tell me how Shannon’s life had changed there’s ! Our lives have purpose even after the train wrecks have occured !
Much love Kyra !
Keep sharing !
Kyra Williams
Thank you so much, all your support has been tremendous! Lots of love xo
Heather Connerty
Krya: That was said so beautifully, we all have to be positive in times like this I myself know all too well. Life does throw us curve balls st times but we have to be strong. I pray every day for everyone’s well being. Grandad Fisher is my Uncle.
Kyra Williams
Thank you Heather for those kind words and your sweet soul.
Kelly
Kyra, Wow! Just wow! You have received a gift that many people don’t receive until they are much older. I have watched the pain and agony you have endured with a smile…. you have come out the other side with a new knowledge of what is really important! You are a teacher and many applaud you! ❤️
Kyra Williams
Thank you Kelly for your kindness ❤️ xo